The other day, I received the nicest note about The Invitation to Love. The note came at the best of times, I had been having a week, where lets just say I was finding it very easy to be hyper self-critical. - that note though, served as a reminder of the fact that God offers daily the opportunity for us to see the love within our imperfections, those so called "flaws" serve to make us imperfectly perfect. Over the weekend, I was with family and my mom looked at an old picture of herself from 30 years ago, she said you know I was a pretty girl. -she said the words in such a way as if she did not know it at the time.
I think we can all relate to that, those moment where we finally look at the past version of ourselves not in constant guilt and regret, but from a place of pride and self-love. What I pray is that we can find the ability to do that in the presence rather than hindsight, in that ability pure and perfect power resides.
My ego happily offers me those areas of "constructive feedback" constantly of how I can be uptight, regimented, and judgmental - all those things might be true, but beyond ego, there is God who knows I am trying my best. It's the gift called Grace that we are given every minute of every day if we have the courage and self acceptance to receive it...it's the humble recognition that I am trying.
So, my goal now is this, is to look at the present and the past, accept my mistakes, and with eyes closed, take a deep breath and say, "God, I tried my best." -Amen.